Sunday, February 26
Wednesday, February 22
Monchichi Monchichi
It was my birthday on Monday. As Trudy teasingly reminded me, I have now entered my thirtieth year. Somehow, I think saying I'm 29 is a more comfortable statement, though I hope I never declare war on my age or fight off growing old. (however, I did find an old lady whisker recently and attacked it with my tweezers. I fear others will follow, specifically, a wiry black one growing out of the mole on my cheek...gross).
Blue Christmas
That's blue as in the shimmering azure of the South China Sea. The Philippines is the best kept secret in Asia. We started our 18-day sojourn in the bustling capital. Manila has little to recommend itself but I did find some long lost CISV pals...
Sunday, February 19
Everything is more than what it seems
I love Saturday mornings. I set my alarm for 9:30. Unlike Monday to Friday, I don't indulge in moaning. I bound across the cold tatami and pull on on my warm wool mocasins. I slip downstairs and put the kettle on. I make a creamy cup of coffee and sweeten it with maple syrup. I fire up the computer. At about this time Christopher enters the room rubbing his eyes. I marvel that his tangled mass of curls has been achieved through the simple act of sleep and not a long ride in a convertible. We curl up on the couch and I stretch my legs across his lap. We listen to the radio...
Excerpt from Wiretap, by Jonathan Goldstein.
Man is two. He is holy, but he is also a scumbag. He is a sentimentalist, but he is also a murderer. He is one, but he is also many. Perhaps he is not just two. He is more than two. Perhaps thirty or so.
The great tragedy of life is that we only have one. One life to be this or that. Yet within us, we hold many selves--all of whom want to live equally.
If only we could subdivide like amoeba, and have one half go into work, while the other half wanders the streets writing poetry on park benches. One self to absent-mindedly play with a letter opener during an endless power-point presentation, while another self dances on the window sill. One self that nods politely at a stranger’s story on the bus about the best chicken sandwich he’s ever eaten, while another self kisses the bus driver on the lips. We are walking, talking piñatas; plump with unnourished desires. And every desire is an unborn self. Pardon my saying so but this is a kind of personal weight that you cannot rid yourself of with the rigorous passing of a medicine ball.
And so we read books and go to movies and live vicariously through the people on the screen who shine twenty feet tall in the darkness. It’s why we dream at night. In dreams we are basketball stars with the power of flight. In dreams the soul paints impossible pictures of endless possible worlds. The idea of reincarnation is reassuring, this idea of unending potential selves launching into perpetuity. For while we live this life, we are doomed to forever be one lonely self.
When we were children we knew that there were many people who lived inside us. We donned masks and put on strange clothing. We allowed these other selves to speak through us in high-pitched voices. Everything around us was more than what it seemed. The hole in the laundry room wall was a portal to a dimension full of Keebler elves. And the red Smarties were pills that cured bullying. The family cat wasn’t merely a cat. We dressed it up in bonnets to bring out its inner milkmaid. And we ourselves were the seeds that would one day sprout into large, multi-petaled things.
As adults we imagine what we could have been, what we might have been--if only we had been loved a little more, breast-fed a little longer. There is in each of us a feeling of untapped hidden possibility: potential selves that, given the chance could have loved more boldly, spoken the truth more plainly, and perhaps even chewed less loudly.
We hunger for new forces to enter our lives, to take hold of our hands, and stop us dead in our tracks with words that recognize and explain not only who we could have been, but who we still could be. As though all of our possible worlds were as plainly obvious and present as the voice on the other end of the telephone line.
Tuesday, February 14
Daisies and Goodies
"Chancho...when you are a man sometimes you wear stretchy pants in your room..." Por el amor de Dios! This trailer made me wet myself. Enjoy!
http://www.apple.com/trailers/paramount/nacholibre/
Shit Disturbers
"You look like David Bowie
But you've nothing new to show me
Start another fire and watch it slowly die..."
Listen to this song
Sometimes I can't help but hum that song in my head when I see some of the Labyrinth inspired hairdos on my boys. Just look at them. Models of discipline and obedience? Indeed not. They are among Japan's cheekiest! Click to enlarge.
woops...they were swallowed into the archives. you have to click Feb to view.
But you've nothing new to show me
Start another fire and watch it slowly die..."
Sometimes I can't help but hum that song in my head when I see some of the Labyrinth inspired hairdos on my boys. Just look at them. Models of discipline and obedience? Indeed not. They are among Japan's cheekiest! Click to enlarge.
woops...they were swallowed into the archives. you have to click Feb to view.
Monday, February 13
Friday, February 10
Blah Blah Blog
This blog is misleading. What looks like a photo gallery is just an attempt to purge my computer of six months worth of pictures. I have been hibernating under my cozy kotatsu. It's time to defy the cold and start a blog. Whatever that is. It's a tricky business, writing for no one and for everyone. But I will endeavour to offend and alienate as many as possible. Update to follow. Don't go away.
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